Friday, January 23, 2009

Different Happinesses

I was just looking at some pictures on facebook...of a friend of mine from a different world. Dazzling and glittery and crazy and happy. Thatz the story the pictures tell. I know there is a different story on the other side...but for once, can I have that? Can I have that wild craziness where there is only a bare, necessary bit of logic so we dont kill each other? Save for that, can I totally let go and just be young and mindless and drugged and happy? Oblivion. That's what I crave. Strange thing to be writing on a day when I'm feeling truly content and maybe, even subduedly happy.

I guess there are different kinds of happinesses. We all have, at one point or another, experienced the bone-deep happiness when we are just thankful for everything and glad that we are alive and happy...the joy of a beautiful memory, remembrances of delightful relationships, peaceful solitude...
And then, of course, there is the mad happiness, where we take a break from monotony and giggle over the silliness of life. Prolly happens more when we are young and naive/stupid...and hopefully, doesnt stop as we grow older.

But the kind of happiness I want, which I prolly had only in sharp bursts of ecstatic flashes, is the all-consuming kind...atleast for those blinks of time. Giddy ecstasy with no intrusive reason or logic, no silly relationship rules...just mind-numbing happiness letting you float away in a hazy consciousness between the harsh light of rigid strictures and the darkness of depression. This friend of mine used a byutiful phrase to describe this happiness...and it is one of my favourites: A wobbly-bendy happiness!


  1. You really dont have brakes, do you?

    I dont know about the rest of your articles, but this time it seems that you just said what you felt.. no?

    though there is no real logical flow, just the thoughts and the way they were expressed, FABULOUS..

    I hope you do end up with a cult following that you deserve..

    keep em coming..

  2. Hi Jo...u r a wordsmith...I wonder at the way u spin words...u have given expression 2 certain feelings which can't be given a name and donot hav a proper origin.. KEEP DI GOOD WORK GOING...


  3. Thank you da...writing really is extremely satisfying. But ur comments are even more so :)

  4. its happiness "differently" felt!! when i read :)

  5. :) Thanks ra...and thank god for so many different flavours of happiness :) Really glad to have shared quite a few with you! MUAAAAAAH